My deepest, darkest secrets…
We’re Public People-Where the Heck I’ve Been
In the past, when the blog was down I continued writing. But when my Mom died, so did I, and so did the blog. I hardly wrote down anything for the…
Life Is Bitter Sweet-Holding The Family Together-I’m So Crazy About Him
I’ve been pushing off this trip for awhile. For many reasons. For one, my Mormor is ancient and extremely exhausting to manage. I love her to death but she’s like a…
One Year Without Her- Neurological Damage and Therapy
I still feel the weight — a weight of exhaustion. It’s the feeling of responsibility, and of failing at that responsibility. “Give your burdens to the Lord,” can be easier said…
The Wedding
It was raining. It was dreamy like every movie promises. It was far greater than the Pinterest board made when I was twelve. Our wedding was the best day of my…
The New Chapter
I’m sorry to have startled you all with the sudden site take down. Mom passed away and I wanted to delete everything out of intense grief and desperation to get…
The Power of Greif – A New Chapter
It’s a source of regret that I never had the opportunity to share my blog with Mom. Among the many things mom won’t see, this one stings particularly because I…
The Engagement-Grief & Happiness
Yes, you read that right! The day finally came; my boyfriend got down on a knee and asked me if I’d spend the rest of my life with him. It…
The Only Thing I Wanted-The Engagement is Off
Hey blog friends. I know a lot of my posts recently have been really depressing. That’s just life lately for me, but in this post I’ll try to be a…
Mom’s Cancer Story-Last Chapter
The doctors told us that mom has two/three months left. Her scan came back with five additional tumors in her brain. Dr. Is guessing that her body is full of…
How to Help Kid’s With Sick Parents-Mom’s Cancer Story-Fighting Melanoma
We’re at the hospital again. Mom had a seizure and fell in the kitchen this morning. This was her second seizure, except this time wasn’t because she didn’t refill her…
A Provoked Child-Mom’s Cancer Story-Family Dirt
An explanation/demonstration of why cheap grace/hyper-faith has ruined my family. For all of my life since day one, my family has had two options. But every time, they don’t just…
Hidden Feelings-I Burned His Love Letters-“She Isn’t You”
I hope this doesn’t come back to bite me later. ;/ I learned some interesting things that I’m not so sure I wanted to know this week. Read if you…
My Haters-The Truth Comes To Light-Anger Management
Live peacefully with all men. If it is possible, as much lieth within me… I repeat over and over and over. It helps. These are the things that changed and…
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Moving The Freak Out-Getting My First Apartment
Well Blog fam. It’s time for a real post. A casual, “back to normal” post about moving the heck out of my abusive house. (If you’re not a part of…
He Did It Again-The God Who Moves Mountains-Mom’s Cancer Story-Gag Me With A Spoon Why Don’t You?
I’m sorry for such a delayed post. You’re all probably hating me right now. Mom made it through, she’s okay. The surgery went according to plan, no mess ups. Doctors…
Final Option-Mom’s 4th Brain Surgery-The Whole World Crumbles
I’ve been counting down the hours. We’ve hit literal rock bottom. At 1:30 they begin our last option. I’m not trembling. I’m not shaking with fear. I’m not a crumbling…
How to Fantasize College and Building Your Life-THAT Girl Confidence
What would you do with your time if you could do whatever you wanted? A lady asked me this question the other day. Sometimes you just want to leave work…
Testing For Funding-How To Pass Your Assessments-Dealing with Adult Bullies-Struggle Of Day Traders
I’ve begun my assessments for funding! Here’s a quick update my crypto/forex friends. This is S’s second-week trading for the company and my first week of testing. Last week went…
Certified and Funded-It took 1,121 Days-Traders Series
That’s right my friends, I didn’t click bait you this time. He opened his laptop in the church office this morning to a certificate of funding. He passed the test…
What Coming Off Steroids Is Like-Immunotherapy and Radiation
Mom’s first dose of Immunotherapy was yesterday. We haven’t had issues with the medicine, not anything that’s out of the ordinary. The doctors say it’s all going as planned. They…
What the First Week Of Radiation Is Like-Mom’s Cancer Story
Her radiation mask was made, dad’s insurance passed for immunotherapy, and we have two treatments behind us already. The doctor told us that her speech and memory declining daily is…
There Won’t be Enough Time to Make up for Right Now
You’re 17 for only 365 days, and you could die at 18. When your mom asks you to sleep in her bed, say yes. One day she could be in…
God Is Not On Trial-Mom’s Cancer Story
Throughout all of Mom’s cancer, the past five years; from the first day she noticed a mark on her skin. God will not be put on trial. For everyone who…
The Scary Truth- What Cancer Really Looks Like-I Don’t Recognize Mom Anymore
Mom’s Cancer Story- Sunday, February 19th, 2023 In one month, mom’s brain tumor doubled in size. She thought her son’s name was September, seventeen, or cereal. She stared at the…
Another Friday Night In The Hospital- It’s the Same and It’s Different
Another Friday night in the ER. Another rushing from work to the hospital, crying in the car, praying for the same things. Mercy. The same text from dad, a picture…
Directing Your Focus Towards Growth-How To Be Prettier and Cooler
A few small things I’ve learned/focused on recently that’ll change your life. This will make you a better girl and a cooler person. Invest in skincare and hair care, not…
Stuck In A Coma-I Almost Got Engaged? The Truth You’ve All Been Waiting For
Hey there buddy ol’ pals. Yes, you read that correctly. The time has come for me to open up about a secret I’ve been keeping, the thing you’ve all been…
Traffic Jam on The Blog-All of my Best Friends Are Out Of The Country
OH, MY WORD! Did we seriously hit that?? I don’t like people knowing how many readers we have here. I don’t want it to change things AND if I start…
Mom’s Brain Cancer Story-Refusing Medicine Isn’t Faith-I’m Exhausted
I don’t recognize my parents anymore. Fried fish sticks for dinner, strange television preachers; awake at 3:00 am and asleep at noon. Dad sitting at the kitchen counter in the…
When You Can Really Say It- Owning Christianity-Mom’s Brain Surgery
I’ve lived stories that have proved Your faithfulness. I’ve seen miracles my mind can’t comprehend. There’s beauty in what I cannot understand. I believe, He’s the wonder working God, all…
Brain Surgery Part #2- Growing up in A Hospital
Hey! I’m back! It turns out that it wasn’t mom’s fancy church heels that were making her tired. On Tuesday we rushed her into the ER, her head started hurting…
When Mom Forgets How to Start the Microwave- Mom’s Cancer Story
Mom isn’t feeling good again. She keeps saying she feel’s “off.” She isn’t responding to texts very much which makes me think she isn’t able to. She had to ask…
When Mom Hates Your Boyfriend-Family Secrets
Heya blog friends. Why are you up at 1:00am? Some of you have been following along with me because you can relate to cancer posts. Sometimes I forget that my…
Home For Christmas-Boyfriend vs. Guy Bestfriend
It doesn’t feel like Christmas yet. It’s freezing cold, but no snow. The family is out of town on business again so the house is quiet which is nice for…
Drama Gave Me The Stomach Flu-Running into Old Friends-Blogmas
O. M. Goodness! Hey! So clearly I had the Stomach Flu. It was so bad I got time off of work which is saying something. Life paused and all I…
Blogmas-Winter Skincare Routine ✨
Happy Blogmas my friends. I’ve been busy with family and friend birthday parties this weekend. Nana turned 74 and my little dude turned 7. This is the month of social…
Sobbing Season-How to Find a Boyfriend You’ll Love Forever-Blogmas❄️
I’ll probably just replay yesterday over and over. When the day starts at 4am, you’re a little sleep deprived. You don’t know what quality time with your boyfriend is, you’re…
Life of a Nanny-Elf On the Shelf-Blogmas
I’m late on posting this so today gets two posts. I know you were all holding your breath in anticipation for my Blogmas post. I’m so sorry to do that…
Holiday Family Drama-Blogmas-I Miss My Boyfriend
I’m trying to keep the Christmas cheer but today isn’t working for me. It’s Blogmas so I’m posting anyway when on normal days like these I wouldn’t. Do you ever…
Magical Snowy Christmas Lodge-Blogmas
Merry Blogmas!!! I hope everyone is enjoying their December so far and loving the hyped preperations of Christmas. 19 more posts and 19 more days. 💖(Sorry it’s late and I’m…
Body Shaming-Why You Should Be Intermitten Fasting-Blogmas
Oh hey there. I decided to continue my Blogmass tradition and post something every day until the 25th. BE EXCITED! At first, I submitted to the fact that I didn’t…
A Day In the Life of a Day Trader- Day #1,018-Struggles of a Day Trader Series- Update on the Trading Bot
Happy Thanksgiving! Even though my boyfriend’s trading bot continues to suck horribly, I’m full of gratitude and thankfulness this year for everything God has blessed and entrusted me with. Even…
Dreaded Anticipation-Trading Journal-Building A Trading Bot- Finishing Automation- Day #1,016
What’s poppin’ crypto friends!? Last you knew, we were getting a team of coders to fix the bugs in his bot. Well, tomorrow is the day we get our finished…
A Finished Trading Bot-Optimizing- Day #1,008
I’m sorry the title click baited you. 😦 Don’t worry, I’m more sad than you. The trading bot is not done. We’ve had many failures and bugs, more than the…
The Struggle of Day Traders Series- Progress on Automation- 3 Steps to Building Your Trading Bot
Day #941 Constant headaches? Facial breakouts due to stress? Not hungry, too busy for fun things, can’t sleep a night through? Watching a rash appear on your chest while you…
The Struggle of Day Traders Series- Day #935- How Low does your Drawdown go Before you Give Up?
Hello my new Forex/Crypto friends. For everyone who has been following my Struggle of Day Traders Series, here’s an update. (Click Here to start reading from the beginning). I started…
Chemo and Radiation- Real Faith vs. Denial.
I know this is my third cancer post in a row, frankly that’s life as of late so that’s my blogging content. Mom’s brain tumor was removed on August 18th,…
What it’s like to Grow Up in a Hospital- Brain Cancer Almost Killed my Mom this Week.
It’s my mother’s birthday month and she’s been sick for all of it. She’s been a walking miracle these past two years. On January 31st, 2020; my mom was diagnosed…
The Blog Is Getting Too Big-I’m Taking It Down
Over the years, the readers have grown. They’ve grown up and grown in number. This place is special, because of YOU. It’s been six years already! Some have come and…
Let the Race Begin- Day #892 -Struggles of Day Traders (a new journal series).
Welcome back my friends! Yesterday, my boyfriend and I opened our real trading accounts! We’ve been on every demo market available trying to perfect and adjust our strategy: becoming confident…
Girl’s 23 Steps To Glowing Up This Summer 2023 – NEW Glow Up Diaries Series
YES! It’s time for the long awaited glow-up series! Who’s EXCITED!? Today we start the beginning of a journey to becoming the best versions of ourselves… Step One: Ask Yourself…
2023 Hot Girl’s Summer is Here- 54 Things to do For the Best Summer Ever!
Why is it that every summer since 2020 people say it’s “Hot Girl Summer.” I titled my post to mock the “Hot Girl Summer” trend because it’s funny to me,…
Vulnerability- How to Have a Serious Relationship-I Broke His Heart
Memorial weekend wasn’t as relaxing as I’d hoped. There were great moments but also devastatingly bad ones thrown in way too often. “Devastating” is a dramatic word, but it gets…
Back Up and Running- Welcome to the Blog.
I would like to announce that the Blog is back. You waited for it, and the time has come. Thank you to everyone who manages to stick around, even when…
When You Need A Lift-Student Motivation
These thoughts replay in my head constantly. It’s the little things that add up-Read this when you’re feeling tired. 😵💫 When you get an assignment, schedule your studying now! When…
College Depression-Using the Christian Title-My Grandparents Have Covid
Life gets harder, people get worse; better, then turn on you again. They fall off the planet, become your best friend, betray you, etc. Sometimes life seems repetitive, days feel…
“I Love You, I’m Never Going To Not” Serious Car Accident-He’s In A Coma
I haven’t seen Mrs. Amber’s phone number pop up in over a year. Austin and N got in a car accident. A serious one. Austin was driving, they were listening…
What Real Faith Will Do-When your Mom is Diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer-High School Diaries
Death and cancer, we’re all way too familiar with these words. I’ve never met someone who wasn’t effected and hurt by cancer. There are two ways you can respond. When…
He Asked Me To Marry Him and I Declined-Story Time
Many of you following along, for whatever reason you do, you won’t stop pestering me about a topic I didn’t “properly close.” YOU ARE ALL MORE DRAMATIC THAN ME AND…
Why I Deleted 3 Years of My Life-Boyfriend Reveal
Hi. I had celebrated my sweet sixteen, finished up Driver’s Ed, and began experiencing the true excitement of life. A little taste of independence. I wanted to try/do as many…
Secret Admirer-Strawberry Blond Jerk-High School Diaries
When you’re 18, everything feels so huge. Tiny things are the biggest things and it all feels like it’ll last forever, every decision changes your whole life. Sometimes I don’t…
How to Throw a Surprise Birthday Party-Surviving Highschool-Online Diaries
Hey hey! This is a “personal journal memory post” of my 18th surprise birthday party. If you want to get a glimpse inside the mind of a teenage girl, keep…
Welcome To The Book Club
Let’s TALK books. I have been reading a ton of books recently and decided it’s about time I added a new series to this blog. A series that I’ll nerd…
Young Love and Young Idiots
Don’t be a hater. I’ll block you. I don’t want to forget my life simply because I was too embarrassed to share the intense feelings I experience. I’m thankful to…
When Your Dreams Become a Reality-Study Advice-Highschool Diaries
Someone pinch me! Guess who’s been getting school exceptance letters in the mail every day this week and two today? It’s adorable to see my dad’s smile when I get…
A Homeschooler’s Prom Experience- Dancing on Tables, Singing in Microphones, and How to Make New Friends
I went to a High School Senior Prom last weekend and it was CRAZY! Promposals and Hurt feelings. My friend invited me to the school dance, after the fact I’m…
Meet Cute But “friends”
This story takes place late at night in a High School. This is thrown together so read at your own risk. My team had a miserably long practice before nationals…
How To Get College Scholarships-The ✨College✨ Diaries
Welcome back to the College Diaries series. This is a school advice post. I’ll be a Junior in HS this upcoming semester. I’ve been planning for college since I was…
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