I’m sorry to have startled you all with the sudden site take down. Mom passed away and I wanted to delete everything out of intense grief and desperation to get some relief or progress to being better.
I decided to make a video which was previously pasted onto this post. Whoops, you must have missed it. It is now down.
Many things happened since summer and I’ve tried writing it all down, but it’s impossible for me. Writing has always been easy and an outlet for me. Not anymore.
So here it is. To be published (again) when I build the nerve… or never again.
I’m slowly coming back to life. When Mom passed away in August the whole world shut down. I didn’t want to see all of my posts about her and have all of the bad memories at the front of my mind. I deleted all of my Instagram posts, and any social platform went dormant. I deleted my social presence digitally and nearly physically as well.
I can’t live in a hole forever. Although it will take time for me to find my new normal, it’s time to start. I do it in faith.
Every post is a lesson I’ve learned in this life of mine. Here it is.
Getting out of the house can be more helpful than staying home. Being around people when you want to be alone is healing. Talking about it, even though you break down, will make you more stable long-term. Taking care of others is the best thing you can do for yourself. I don’t know what’s best for myself, but I always think I do.
Thank you for the kind messages and for reading my little journal.
Life is short and everyone will die. Don’t take those people in your everyday life for granted.
Happy New Year.