Tag: Faith
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One Year Without Her- Neurological Damage and Therapy
I still feel the weight — a weight of exhaustion. It’s the feeling of responsibility, and of failing at that responsibility. “Give your burdens to the Lord,” can be easier said than done. Certain passages come to mind that fit, but the process of actually doing it is hard. I haven’t lived long enough. I…
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The Power of Greif – A New Chapter
It’s a source of regret that I never had the opportunity to share my blog with Mom. Among the many things mom won’t see, this one stings particularly because I am certain she would have taken great pride in it. During those periods when her health permitted, she devoted countless hours to her own writing…
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What the First Week Of Radiation Is Like-Mom’s Cancer Story
Her radiation mask was made, dad’s insurance passed for immunotherapy, and we have two treatments behind us already. The doctor told us that her speech and memory declining daily is normal and not to be scared. My little brother and I have learned to show no reaction when we can’t understand her. We try so…
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God Is Not On Trial-Mom’s Cancer Story
Throughout all of Mom’s cancer, the past five years; from the first day she noticed a mark on her skin. God will not be put on trial. For everyone who doesn’t truly know what all happened. God is NOT on trial. If mom passed, I will love Him and worship Him, even more, the next…
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The Scary Truth- What Cancer Really Looks Like-I Don’t Recognize Mom Anymore
Mom’s Cancer Story- Sunday, February 19th, 2023 In one month, mom’s brain tumor doubled in size. She thought her son’s name was September, seventeen, or cereal. She stared at the cash in her hands not knowing how to pay for lunch. Dad called her and all she said was gibberish and then told him she…
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Another Friday Night In The Hospital- It’s the Same and It’s Different
Another Friday night in the ER. Another rushing from work to the hospital, crying in the car, praying for the same things. Mercy. The same text from dad, a picture of the waiting room from my little brother’s Ipad; sitting in the same chair. It’s just like the time before, and before that, and the…
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Mom’s Brain Cancer Story-Refusing Medicine Isn’t Faith-I’m Exhausted
I don’t recognize my parents anymore. Fried fish sticks for dinner, strange television preachers; awake at 3:00 am and asleep at noon. Dad sitting at the kitchen counter in the dark of the morning wondering how he’ll get through the day. He still fakes a smile for me though before I leave for work. The…
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Brain Surgery Part #2- Growing up in A Hospital
Hey! I’m back! It turns out that it wasn’t mom’s fancy church heels that were making her tired. On Tuesday we rushed her into the ER, her head started hurting like it did back in August and she knew not to wait to go to the hospital this time. Her MRI came back showing two…
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When Mom Forgets How to Start the Microwave- Mom’s Cancer Story
Mom isn’t feeling good again. She keeps saying she feel’s “off.” She isn’t responding to texts very much which makes me think she isn’t able to. She had to ask dad how to start the microwave, on Sunday she almost passed out “because she was wearing heels.” Her surgery is this upcoming Wednesday, January 11th.…
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When Mom Hates Your Boyfriend-Family Secrets
Heya blog friends. Why are you up at 1:00am? Some of you have been following along with me because you can relate to cancer posts. Sometimes I forget that my mom has cancer, she’s so “zipped lips” about it. Tonight, on my way out of the house to drive my boyfriend’s cousins to his house,…
Elaine Kate 