Throughout all of Mom’s cancer, the past five years; from the first day she noticed a mark on her skin. God will not be put on trial. For everyone who doesn’t truly know what all happened. God is NOT on trial.
If mom passed, I will love Him and worship Him, even more, the next day. If we lost her, I would not be mad at God. I wouldn’t stop going to church or living my life for Him. I wouldn’t blame Him or ask Him why he didn’t miraculously heal her because He already did multiple times. The last thing I’d do is question Him.
My little brother is ten, he doesn’t know anything other than how much Mom loves Jesus and how she’s been so sick. When he’s older he needs to know the truth, not just bits and pieces from Nana or Dad; he’ll know what happened. He won’t put God on trial as he grows up-he’ll see how real and good our God was and is. How merciful.
I hope some of my posts help him when he’s old enough to handle it. I’m starting a vlog for him, where my big brother and I will explain so he doesn’t feel lied to like we were at that age. Our Pastor will record something too, helping carry him through it. Mom wasn’t an angel through all of this. God has given her miracle after miracle, chance after chance. It’s a phenomenon that’s she’s alive, doctors say it’s impossible. She brushes it off and does nothing with her second, fifth, and eighth chances. Eventually, it’s bound to end, and I hope it ends with her learning, repenting, and coming back to us.
And if not, God is not on trial.
Elaine Kate 